eh

dreams, memories,

they're all the same,

i wish i could detach the bond,

but with you nothing is easy,

i'd rather be the one left to the streets,

at least i'd get back on my feet,

the constant knocking on my front door is falls on my ears with contempt,

if only there was a back door run out of,

i need a break from your constant pounding on my walls

in perfect rhythm with the throbbing inside my head,

but i'm trapped and the walls wearing thin,

even when it's over it's never truly over,

tomorrow's a new day but it feels the same,

it's still filled with the droning tones of everything associated with you,

full of the constant longing to go back to the past,

you dream of the days past,

and i dread them all the same,

but i can't convey these thoughts, 

you're  a fragile egg,  just waiting to crack, 

and i won't be the one who does,

please be merciful, i'm not a begging person,

but give me this time to myself,

leave me to regret in peace

throwing stones

like a tornado i hear the sound,

sounds of chaos and the tearing of foundations,

such power that overlooks the subjects underneath,

but in the same breath there's joy,

the same winds tow me to fields of peace,

have i been the only one?

you speak with disregard,

and i listen with hope of truth,

i create my own circumstances,

when we talk i lose track of reality and fantasy,

when you speak you pretend,

but i speak with sincerity,

though we each play along,

i hope you feel something more as i do

lets begin again!

how can we compare?

how do we begin to become?

for the years we've been observers,

only listeners, and crutches to the weak,

I've gladly cooperated for the years,

and i gladly will,

but who listens to the listener?

with hands over our mouths no one hears our cries,

our longing to be heard,

when our hearts break,

who holds the pieces until we find peace?

i'll gladly listen to your needs, 

i'll help in whatever way i can, 

but with each word that passes i grow weak with discomfort,

i only wish my half of the story could be heard,

my story that proclaims my need for your voice,

and your heart,

such calm, and subtle words that flow into my ear,

they drift through my head for days,

we want to be heard, 

we want to be held,

we want to be loved

Song #32

Holding your hands out again?

There's nothing but air

No, I promise,

I see a way out,

There is a way out

Where is it?

Where do you draw the line?

There's nothing

This is only your dream

Wake up,

And walk away

It's my only escape,

Why walk away

From what I've chased

This was my right,

This was my shelter,

Don't tell me,

This is a false sense of security

She was never there,

This was your aspiration,

The only thing you had left,

You made you own story,

Just to ignore the truth,

Justifying yourself does no good,

She exists only for you,

She is just a hope, nothing more,

Let her go

Song #31 Gold and Silver

"I swear!

Everything is just ahead!

The diamonds, the riches!

It's all so close!"

 

Everyone left,

Unsatisfied with what they saw,

But I can see the truth,

There's treasure hidden beneath me,

I've been digging and crawling,

"There must be a reward"

 

It's now in front of me,

But I can't lift it myself,

I'm left gazing,

At what I've struggled to claim as my own,

 

Everyone walked away,

And now I have no choice,

I'll have to walk away too,

 

"Everyone!

We had the answer to our problems!

We were so close!

This was your decision,

Alone,

Is this the fate you chose for me?"

 

All I wanted was a chance to prove myself,

I did,

Nobody was there to see,

Nobody.

 

The jewels are at my side,

Untouched,

Where I'll make my grave,

I was right all along,

It was in our grasp,

Then you walked away,

Your devotion was all I asked.

 

"When you promised,

Were you just here for the gold?

This takes sacrifice!

I devoted my life!

What did you come here for?
To make me a fool?

You have your wish!"

 

The ground shifted over time,

And the fortune was overturned,

Buried under again,

And the hands came back,

They escaped with all the gems,

Leaving the master below,

 

"This was to be my honor,

My only compromise for the years I suffered"

Song #30 Shameful

I would give you the world,

And we could move the highest mountains,

But only in make believe,

Where the truth lies,

We can never be,

This is the closest I've come,

And we're still too far from where I want to be,

You're a light in a tower,

Shining for the city below,

And the city chases you with me,

I know I'm far from acceptable,

So I turn away,

Before you're trapped in my mind,

You cast my shadow in front of me,

Reminding me of who I really am,

And showing me you aren't interested,

With grief on my shoulders,

I head home with arms holding myself together,

Because all who's left is the cold

Song #29 Embers

Everything has reduced to rubble,

Every ship has sank,

Beyond the harbor,

There's nothing but oceans,

That I've created,

I'm signing out of this deal,

This wasn't part of the bargain,

I'll erase my signature with my tears,

I don't care if I fold under the pressure,

I don't care what you think of me,

Mark me a coward,

I'll mark you an enemy,

Frame me the culprit,

And I'll put you in the chains,

I know you want to throw me to the sea,

But I'll throw you to the fire,

Choose your words carefully,

And so will I,

I'm giving up on morals,

It's an eye for an eye,