Song #31 Gold and Silver

"I swear!

Everything is just ahead!

The diamonds, the riches!

It's all so close!"

 

Everyone left,

Unsatisfied with what they saw,

But I can see the truth,

There's treasure hidden beneath me,

I've been digging and crawling,

"There must be a reward"

 

It's now in front of me,

But I can't lift it myself,

I'm left gazing,

At what I've struggled to claim as my own,

 

Everyone walked away,

And now I have no choice,

I'll have to walk away too,

 

"Everyone!

We had the answer to our problems!

We were so close!

This was your decision,

Alone,

Is this the fate you chose for me?"

 

All I wanted was a chance to prove myself,

I did,

Nobody was there to see,

Nobody.

 

The jewels are at my side,

Untouched,

Where I'll make my grave,

I was right all along,

It was in our grasp,

Then you walked away,

Your devotion was all I asked.

 

"When you promised,

Were you just here for the gold?

This takes sacrifice!

I devoted my life!

What did you come here for?
To make me a fool?

You have your wish!"

 

The ground shifted over time,

And the fortune was overturned,

Buried under again,

And the hands came back,

They escaped with all the gems,

Leaving the master below,

 

"This was to be my honor,

My only compromise for the years I suffered"

Song #30 Shameful

I would give you the world,

And we could move the highest mountains,

But only in make believe,

Where the truth lies,

We can never be,

This is the closest I've come,

And we're still too far from where I want to be,

You're a light in a tower,

Shining for the city below,

And the city chases you with me,

I know I'm far from acceptable,

So I turn away,

Before you're trapped in my mind,

You cast my shadow in front of me,

Reminding me of who I really am,

And showing me you aren't interested,

With grief on my shoulders,

I head home with arms holding myself together,

Because all who's left is the cold

Song #29 Embers

Everything has reduced to rubble,

Every ship has sank,

Beyond the harbor,

There's nothing but oceans,

That I've created,

I'm signing out of this deal,

This wasn't part of the bargain,

I'll erase my signature with my tears,

I don't care if I fold under the pressure,

I don't care what you think of me,

Mark me a coward,

I'll mark you an enemy,

Frame me the culprit,

And I'll put you in the chains,

I know you want to throw me to the sea,

But I'll throw you to the fire,

Choose your words carefully,

And so will I,

I'm giving up on morals,

It's an eye for an eye,

Song #28 Endeavor

This is it,

Wave goodbye,

And blow a kiss,

There's no sand in sight,

Who came on this venture?

Except the ones who forced me on,

Is there an answer?

Quiet fills the empty spaces,

Loading and filling,

I'm running out of space,

Throw the rest overboard,

Do I have a voice?

Your agenda is your vision,

Just try to see past it,

I will haunt this as a grave,

The mark of a life,

Let's see you make it out alive,

Does anyone else feel the heat?

Does ash fill your lungs?

Make this your punishment,

I'll watch you struggle,

Survive this endeavor,

Pull yourself up,

I want to be pushing you back down,

Stand in your window,

Scared to see past your shelter,

I will haunt this as a grave,

My loves and grievances,

Buried below,

The black on my hands,

Will wash off,

But you won't clean this as easy,

My word stands,

And I'll watch you crumble under the pressure,

I'll haunt this as a grave

Song #27 Words

Words,

Are the medium by which we create,

There's a tapestry we are weaving,

Finishing what the other starts,

Each holding the needles and threads,

We seam ourselves together,

These words will never grow old,

This pattern quickly evolves,

With each passing day,

But I need to see what is completing my works,

Hours are beginning to feel as days,

And we continue to unravel all our efforts,

I'm forgetting your face,

And I'm heartbroken.

With each step I take,

I know I'm nearing you,

And you feel the same,

We walk in sync,

Following the others heart,

The closer we are the faster we move,

Chase to find you,

I'm approaching the doors,

And I can't hear your voice,

I'm running in circles on this vessel,

The faces are blending over and over,

There is finally my reward,

I find you sitting,

Staring back at me,

These glances are shooting like fireworks,

And it creates a beautiful display,

My feet refrain to move,

I'm stuck staring at the one who stares at me,

Yet I'm satisfied,

When I return to the harbor,

I know time is short,

I lie in bed,

Recollecting all that you are,

Each time I remember you,

The memory fades more and more,

Now again I'm staring at the screen,

Waiting and waiting for your words,

They spin a web,

Connecting me to you,

Yet now all I ever get is your words,

Your presence no more,

Our stitching is slowing to a halt,

Soon there will be an unfinished sewing,

Hanging in our hearts

Song #26 The Waters Edge

Sit in the dark,

And take the medicine,

Take whatever makes me feel better,

It's a false sense of security,

I know I won't be back,

I know this will come crashing down,

I'm stalling for the bottom,

And I'm afraid of when it happens,

I've had my share of dreams,

Who can say they haven't,

But all of mine never come to be true,

All these faces,

I shutter to look at,

I just want this to stop,

If this is the end,

Make it come faster than it is,

My heart still lies with you,

I still look at you with thoughts of love,

But this has to come to pass,

If so don't wait to say,

I'm aching to see the darkest of days,

I want the waves to break over me,

I'm ready to be stripped from the land,

Pull me to the depths,

I want to feel the cool of the ocean all over,

I want to see the seas calm,

Song #25 Night As Cold As Ice

Stop yourself,

We're about to explode,

I can feel this in waves,

Each getting harder to pass,

Just keep on walking,

This is something,

Even I don't want to see,

This will be a sight inevitable,

Choose carefully and plan each step,

Hold on to sanity,

Before long I'll fall to the floor,

There's going to be no safety,

And nothing close to grab,

Pain turns to despair,

Turns to hate,

And the cycle continues,

Something will pull me out,

Till then I'm not sure what,

This is a cold winters night,

And daylight seems too far away,

Who wants to hold up my weak self?

It's going to be me, myself, and I,

Anyone else care to join?

I've got a long night ahead of me,

Lets get the worst over now.

Song #24 A Mockery

Speak to me,

I just want to hear you,

I'm a sorry excuse for a life,

I'll chase the wild dreams,

Maybe we'll work,

But even I doubt anything flourishing,

There's a divide between close and achievement,

I'm refusing to believe,

I'm setting up the days to be filled with mourning,

Don't blame yourself,

Intentions are digging my grave,

Song #23 Contempt

So this was your plan?

You can call it what you want,

I call it a disaster,

You truly don't see behind you,

Disdain always was your best quality,

I hope you're happy staring in the mirror,

I know what you've done,

And I don't want anything to do with your future,

When even I can see tears down the road,

You have a major flaw,

Sign up now,

There won't be regrets,

That's what you said,

But that's not what I know,

I'll turn on the burners,

Until you can feel something,

Something other than rash emotions,

Take this turn faster than ever attempted,

The wreckage can be seen a mile away.

Song #22 Slaves

Pursue everything possible,

Dig your hands into the ground,

We're not letting go,

Not without a fight,

You can pull as hard as you want,

I'll just hold even harder,

Sorrow,

I've become its slave,

Throw your past in the furnace,

Everything burns slowly,

Eventually it is reduced to ash,

Eventually no one will have known,

Here comes the end,

The smoke rises,

Concluding the story's first chapter,

And a melancholy beginning,

Everyone has a title to hide behind,

And they throw it over a shoulder,

I have eyes,

I can see your true thoughts,

This holds no future for me,

I'll clinch what belongs to me,

You can't persuade,

I've made my decision. 

Song #21 Cornered

As fear slips into this dimly lit room,

I feel I've felt this too many times before,

God, I'm afraid to see the morning,

The walls show me I am trapped,

The pressure is building,

But I can't tell when it's too late,

Tension,

What is simple,

Made complex,

This is a struggle,

And I'm slipping,

Beneath this unstable ground,

Hold yourself together till day,

And awake to your results,

Weeks and weeks of expecting,

Everything seems to fall at the wrong time,

Become a slave to yourself,

Working to your own demise,

You don't have a choice

Song #20 Constrictor

Tormented by ourselves,

We're trapped in our complacency,

Just when we're through,

It's not even close to over,

Pull you excuses along with you,

They're heavier than you know,

Crying on the floor,

Cause it's the only one who’s heard your story,

Fall to your bed side,

Cause it's the only one who has comforted you

Nothing can help if you're not willing,

You've fantasized your self free,

And fallen when the truth comes crashing down,

How good it felt to be free,

All the world could be yours,

But you're stuck,

Your hand gripping what it thinks it needs,

Drive as far as you can from home,

Yet the story you've written will stay,

You can find guilt anywhere,

But finding yourself will lift the burdens,

There's a light,

But you put a sheet over it and walked away,

Trace your steps back,

Uncover the treasure,

That pays for the condemnation

Song #19 MIstakes

There's a fine line,

And you've crossed it,

Spiraling endlessly,

Head over heals,

I can see it from here,

The walls are just ahead,

And you don't seem to care,

 

(Chorus)

Our past,

We can take it back,

We can do this over,

This is our life,

And I can't stand this battling,

We are not perfect,

So lets not expect each other to be,

 

Take time to look at the scene unfolding,

And see the end of this tragedy,

Throw everything away,

Swear you'll start again,

But where,

That's my one question,

It will take time to pick up the pieces,

You can't do this alone,

And I'm right here

 

Chorus

 

There's not much time,

The floor is shaking,

I can see the cracks,

This plan has a major flaw,

But you don't want to hear it,

Convince yourself,

You have it all figured out,

I can see the fear in your eyes,

Don't let go of all you have,

I'm not saying I've been right,

But neither were you,

 

Chorus

 

That's the past,

And it's time to forget all mistakes

Song #18 Skeleton in the Closet

Take a hard look,

It isn't difficult to see,

The blood is covering the floor,

Anyone can see the scars,

And make their own diagnosis,

Labels and labels,

Frame everything you can,

But I can't find anyone to blame but myself,

These wounds,

They're still hurting,

And I'm growing weak,

Giving in again,

I can't break this cycle,

Quit and the evidence is there for all to see,

Keep going and feel the convictions,

Choose,

Either way we'll suffer on and on,

Shed light in this dark room,

See what we've become,

Choices and choices endlessly made,

But none seem to be right,

Abstinence leaves your life a wreck,

And your left covering up the trail,

Try to do what's right,

Though it will end,

A tragedy like before,

Starting and stopping again and again,

Just give it up,

There's just one body to bury,

But we've gambled way too deep,

Everything will lead to the start,

No one will think of us the same.

Red and Blue

Mistake after mistake only adds to the tension,

We're just trying to make it out alive,

But we were all too late,

Trying to defend themselves and the ones they love,

They run away,

Give mercy,

Stop chasing for your revenge,

In time we will cope,

You ask for everything at the wrong hour,

Give us a fighting chance,

What is sincere is marked as betrayal,

And we are all guilty of crimes,

In trying to show compassion,

We are falsely accused,

Wait for dawn to gather your thoughts.

So I'll head home down the narrow roads,

Travel these paths alone,

Escape while I can,

No one believes innocence,

And my voice is left unheard

Song #17 Stuck

What peace I have,

To see sun through the clouds,

I am free,

Let go of reality,

And let your aspirations fall down,

Like drops of rain,

so cool to the touch,

This is what I've been waiting for,

A chance to never look to the past,

Yet it's all we can see,

I dream of fields,

And the breeze blowing me away,

I'm taken to your window,

And I'll take one last look,

We turn and walk,

But I am still tied to your tree,

The view is so nice from here,

Yet I'm tortured by you,

So turn out the lights,

Leave me in the dark,

I'll wait till morning,

Once last glimpse is all I ask.

Song #16 A Family Divided

Another bitter end,

A circle split by itself,

Is this what we intended?

Tearing and tearing again,

Is there a reason?

When can we stop the pulling and prodding?

I'm waiting for a days end,

When chaos isn't the goal,

We have destroyed ourselves,

Trying to unite,

The constant betrayal is taking its toll,

And I'm done taking the time,

The walls come falling to the floor,

And the roof is nowhere to be found,

This is what you call a home?

Where is your family?

Consistently lurking in the shadows,

They talk and spread,

Telling what they can,

To keep themselves away from the light,

Soon enough the secrets can't hide,

And this town will fall in regret.

Song #15 Savior

Such a path we fall for,

Another step without taking caution,

And I've been sitting,

Waiting to see someone make a choice.

Can this be over now?

Will you take my hand?

Lets clean you up,

Lets pull you together,

Take what you've done,

Throw it away,

I see redemption,

On the horizon line,

So don't hold back,

Release this from your grip,

It doesn't control you,

Not anymore,

Don't let me be the one,

Who has to see you suffer,

We can change this,

This spiral downward,

I will pull you up from the depths,

Have faith and trust in me.

Song #14 Flightless

Have I really become this ignorant?

Falling for this trap again,

I'm becoming too accustomed to this,

Something I never wanted to happen,

But it has anyway,

There's no turning back,

You've pushed me too close,

And you pushed me in,

You can kill one bird with two stones,

But it takes a tangled web of branches,

And someone willing to try again,

When will honesty become the standard?

Can hiding till the end really be best?

I choose to believe otherwise.

Will anyone join me?

This winding road,

I don't know where it leads,

But I need a change in scenery,

This was my one hope,

And now it's tossed to the winds,

No matter what you say,

I think it's best if I leave

Song #13 Perfect

This would be about God. Just an FYI

Beauty I've found at last,

I've beat around the bush too long,

This is what I've been yearning for

A perfect being,

Someone unseen, unheard,

Yet so profound they can't be ignored,

Come blow me away with the wind,

Guide me to your heart,

Show me something new, 

Change my eyes,

I want to see what you see,

Take me somewhere for us,

A place where I can dance in your love,

I want to be swept off my feet again,

So bring me to your presence,

What I would give to see this world feel the same,

I will tell of you,

And say I have found true love,

A love perfect and everlasting,

Let my words be a sweet sound to your ears.

Song #12 The Sun

This is the one that will never be seen... ugh. unless she changes her mind

What a gift I've received,

Joy I profess to the skies,

I no longer think in time,

I count the hours from when I see you,

You’re my sunrise and sunset,

You shine till you're gone,

And I am left imagining,

How marvelous you'll be the next day,

I wait to hear from you,

So during the night,

I know you're still shining somewhere,

Life away from this,

What I thought was normal,

Has become cold,

As lonely as the midnight hour,

But I know you'll come again,

And I can rest easy,

When storms come,

I know you will follow,

You ease the floods,

You calm the seas,

So I will wait to see you,

I look to the east,

And know you'll come again

Song #11 Can it be

As you know this isn't a song this was the first and only poem so far.... i've given her.

Can this even be true,

All this waiting,

This wasn't what I expected,

But it's much better,

I look to the left and know you'll be there,

And I'm content.

 

This is truly a sight to see,

The way the sun reflects,

It shines for your eyes,

We laugh at everything we say,

And don't care about anything else,

I can't dream it any better.

 

Every touch,

An embrace to remember,

It's something extraordinary.

The only regret,

Is waiting till now,

Stay longer,

Life's brighter with you here.

Song #10 A Spot in the Desert

You just keep on going,

I can see you from here,

Truly I've wished I did before,

Because it's so clear now,

With daylight, comes sight to see,

And what a scene unfolds,

Crawl,

Searching for something to give you meaning,

You thrive on your own commendations,

What a deadly game to play,

You've stuck yourself in this hole,

Can you even get out?

What a deadly game to play,

Taking whatever you can get,

Without even a second glance,

I swear I have new eyes,

Everything is unveiled,

What a painful sight to see,

Still sifting through the sand,

Grab onto anything willing,

I've seen you do this before,

Grab on to anything willing,

You seem to more and more,

Get your head on straight,

Get out before it's too late,

See how you put your neck on the line?

There's no options left,

Back out now with hands raised high,

Surrender yourself,

Before it's too late.

Song #9 Speaking in Tongues

You've changed things,

Closed yourself off,

I can't seem to make this like before,

Everything I try,

You dismiss it,

I get the feeling that you're resenting me.

What have I done?

I don't even know,

 

You weren't this way,

Stop pushing and pulling,

I'm about sick of giving and taking,

I never know what to say,

We might as well say nothing,

Because I can't,

Find something to spark your interest,

If you're done with me, just say it,

It's better than believing everything is fine,

 

What happened to life before?

This isn't living,

I'm just a hollow shell,

Somewhere you divide,

I can't tell what you want me to say,

I'm becoming weary,

These one sided conversations,

They're making me question,

Question if this is worth the time,

 

Chorus

 

You don't sound interested in me anymore,

What's it going to take?

Frankly I'm about done,

But I'll give you a chance once more,

If there's reason to this madness,

Please, tell me,

I can't find a cause,

Give me motivation to try this again,

 

Chorus

 

I can't win your game,

If you keep changing the rules,

If you're not willing,

Neither am I

Song #8 Withdrawals

I've lost my sense of direction

It's been too long,

I'm suffocating,

You were my oxygen,

If I could just take back time

Perhaps this would be better if I never knew you,

 

I know your not coming back

It seems I can't keep you close,

I can't hold your attention,

This is tearing me apart,

Limb by limb,

I no longer think rationally,

I have to let go,

But I can't, something compels me to hold on,

There won't be anything left to hold soon,

 

I miss the simple embrace,

The touch of your lips,

I can't say it was a smart idea,

I caused this pain,

But I loved it for the time,

Now though, I can't take this,

These withdrawals will kill me,

I can't live without you,

 

Chorus

 

I'll try to hold on,

But I can't forever,

Will you be there to catch me before I fall?

I hope so,

But hope seems unreal now,

I haven't felt this way in a long time,

I pray I won't feel it anytime soon,

Will someone help me,

I'm scared I won' see the light of day

 

Chorus

Song #7 Seeing

Breaking through,

Finally I can see

I guess it's been too long,

Being left in the dark,

I seem to regard things differently,

Unlike I did before,

This all seems too good,

I can't seem to grasp the concepts,

But you've captured my attention,

 

(Chorus)

This was your plan?

You couldn't just let go,

This grudge is futile,

Just take what's yours leave

You've made your point,

I have nothing left to say to you,

 

It's starting to make sense,

I feel betrayed,

This is going to take some time,

I've fallen to the floor,

Give me a chance to clear my head,

I'm so lost,

This isn't what you promised

Your lying has become conventional

It's mystifying,

Just trying to gleam the truth from your lies

 

Chorus

 

You seem to be content,

You've already moved on,

But I won't forget,

This is too hard to forget,

Is it really that difficult?

Just to give up your ways,

Why do you enjoy my foolishness?

I'm suffering from this,

You don't even care for a soul,

I'm done,

You can't control me anymore,

Don't push your luck again,

 

Chorus

Song #6 Paintings

Standing back, I'll see this from here,

A full picture that I have painted with my actions,

If seeing is believing,

I believe I've made a terrible mistake,

Knowing this, at least, is a step towards a change,

But right now I'm too sick to move,

I think I'll stare at this portrayal,

What I thought would be a masterpiece,

It's instead a terrible shame,

A waste of my work,

I'm giving up on this depiction now,

You took it and thrust yourself all over,

A beautiful addition,

But one that I can't stand to see anymore,

I've become selfish

I've trapped myself here,

Once again I'll feel the pain of this,

Trying to make you

What you don't want to be

I've let you engulf me,

And now I can't let you go

 

 Now I'll watch as your colors slip down the canvas,

Covering all that I've done,

Letting go will hard, I know this at least,

But I'll have to let go eventually,

I'm throwing away this painting now,

Never trying this medium again. 

Song #5 Calling

this is more of a poem but whatevs

It all starts with a sound

As peaceful as a breeze

But now I'm lost chasing

To find where it leads

I've walked so far I'm broken and tired

But this voice is leading

To where I want to be

So vulnerable

I've put myself here

But I have nowhere better to be

With a peace this inviting

I can breathe with lungs refilled

And my heart is full of love 

Song #1 Hearts Content

This is actually the first... and it's quite terrible hahaha

Everything says no

But  my heart says yes

this plan will never work

but how I'd love to give it a try

this question needs an answer

and there's so many to choose from

this was never the plan I had

to be in love with what I cannot have

 

If you could just take my hand

If I could snap out of this fabrication

maybe I'll get the chance

but for the moment I am lost

and I just have to break the locks

this will never be set in motion

yet I have these false perceptions

 

How can I think that

any of this could work

(What have I done to myself

I've started to dig my own hole

where have I gone wrong

I just wish we could be friends

But my heart cannot be satisfied

I swear tried, I swear I've tried

 

(chorus)

 

What have I done

where did I go wrong

where did I get these thoughts

how can stop this curse

I'm tired of reaching out my hand

And not getting anything back

 

(chorus)

Song #4 An Endless Struggle

How long

Will you stand there?

Get up and walk

Stop collecting dust

This nation

Has stood still for to long

When will you break free?

I am yelling the truth

Yet everyone walks right by

This was once a sacred nation

Lead free by the One who saves

Now you sin to His face

Do you feel no remorse?

I know

What they will face

I've seen their acts myself

My heart is breaking

My bones are aching

Your land will be undone

When will you burn your statues?

How long can you live in denial?

I've seen this city corrupt over time

It blackens everyday

Can you not hear the sounds of the army?

They've come to take what's yours away

Even as you repent

You do what you've done before

Time and time again

You're not fighting it off

You welcome your own demise

You've kept in your homes

I've warned and my voice has grown hoarse

How can I mourn for you?

When you never even cared

I cannot find one honest person

Nobody lives by the Word

And you given up your God

Traded life for death

Why can't you see through the lies?

You can't turn back you've had your chance

Your defeat will be short

The graves won't

Have the time to be filled

Song #3 Disaster

Laying in this room

I wake to the realization

That I am no longer safe

The walls are closing in

My mind is racing for a cure

The air is getting thin

My mind is racing for a cure

What have I done?

I've sold myself away

There is no outcome

That will leave me the same as yesterday

Falling on my face in prayer

I long for redemption

Set me free from these chains

Lift the burden off my soul

Beauty: no more than a disguise,

It covers their secrets

It's nothing more than my enemy

I have been deceived

Give me a second chance

O Lord, take control!

I can't stand to look at what I've caused

My future holds nothing but pain

My past will become my hope

The only thing I'll have left to hold

For now I'll lay here dreaming

There must be a solution

Please let me find the cure

Grace is now what I long to have

Don’t let me go

I promise

From this day forward

I will seek You before I take action

song #2 Assurance

I’ve seen you walk the line

Waver on the edge on the edge of  the cliff

I’ve seen the mistakes you’ve made

And how you had to pick up your pieces

I've tried to save you so many times

But I can’t try anymore

You'd rather leave your comfort

And step right out the door

 

 

How can you jump on to a ship

when you can see it will fall apart

how can you walk on the ground you do

when you can tell it’s sinking will soon start

I’ve tried to stop you so many times

And all you do is ignore

I have grown weak and tired

And I can’t stop you any more

 

You have the opportunity To save yourself

You’d rather dive in head-first

you've grown so arrogant

you think you have everything in control

But when water clears

And you see all the pain that's in store

Can you finally decide for yourself

To never head that way again

 

Chorus

 

Everytime you fall

Do you notice it’s harder to get back up

Everytime you face the fact

Do you ever wish you could take it back

You have to decide for yourself

Can you please make the right choice

In your head you’ve blocked me out

If only you cold hear my voice

If I can only change your mind

And you get past your self-deception

Then we could stop all the heart-ache and depression

 

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So it begins

Hello! so chelsea you request and i grant. here's the blog on which everysong ever shall go! eventually. LETS GET STARTED!!!! there will be a slow release to one a day.. starting from the first to most recent. so you will probably get bored once there are songs you've already seen but o well