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Progress isn't something you see day to day,

Planting seeds is a game of chance,

Anticipation is what keeps you alive,

Just one hint of green,

A hint of life that brings comfort,

Progress, like fingers reaching to the sky,

They pull themselves up and begin to thrive,

Hope keeps your prayers constant,

That what you see won't wilt away,

Faith tells you your prayers haven't gone unanswered,

And hints again at the day the flowers will come into view,

Progress is when you see the leafs,

Slowly coming out to see the summer sun,

When it seems to shine curiously brighter,

Patience is when you stay inside from the cold,

When you strain to see your plants still alive,

Progress is when spring comes,

The green has become vibrant and growing still,

Happiness comes when the buds can be seen up close,

Too small for a normal eye, but you've been taught well,

Dedication is when you still lift your eyes to the sky,

And pray even when everything looks perfect,

Faith keeps you confident and takes away doubt,

Fear comes when you know God controls everything,

When you understand everything is a blessing,

Reward comes when you trust in the Lord,

When your roses have come into full bloom,

Calling them your own,

Holding them proudly, with loving jealousy,

fail

I took time to stand outside in the cold,

Just to talk to you,

Just to get to know,

I did this for weeks at a time,

Until I had you,

Until I thought I had you,

I've been talking to the other half of you,

The other half I knew,

The other stayed inside,

I've been talking to the other half of you,

The other half I knew,

The other held on too, but not to me

I looked back on the months I spent with you,

Where growing emotions grew,

But weeds came from the ground,

The fox,

He came back to our town,

What I thought was our town,

But i'm the fox, and they want none

I've been talking to the other half of you,

The other half I knew,

The half I thought was true,

I've been talking to the other half of you,

The only half I knew,

The half I wish was really you,

False hope came and went,

For this time my care is spent,

I just wanted a better view,

A picture frame with me and you,

Beggers can't be choosers,

But I swear I didn't beg,

I took the time, I chose to choose,

BUt in the end I guess I lose

boom that just happened

Everyday a farmer walked out to his fields,
Harvesting what the land produced,
Selling grain and fruits to the common wealth,
Though never rich he lived a peaceful, content life,
Giving food to the ones he loved,
And his children always smiled,
But whenever he was outside he looked to the ground,
Hiding from the sun,
Shielding his exhausted eyes,
One day the sun was out yet he looked up,
Sat down against a tree and looked to his valley below,
It was filled with trees of fruit and ripe crops even more,
Saying, "Where have I been? How long has my soil been this way?
Everything I'll ever need, I own because this land produces everyday."
"What man am I to not notice my plantation till this moment?
My field covered with every seed, giving enough to keep me filled."...
Overlooking the simplicities,
Things we never thought to need,
Never giving our gifts a second glance,
But we would never give them up.
When printed words are all you see,
Don't forget the author behind the desk,
The face that I have kept inside the thoughts of my mind,
Is one I didn't notice, I question if I was blind,
But now that I've looked up seeing what I've talked about,
I keep those words like the seeds from the plants I grow,
Because beauty is a gift that's more than appearance alone,
I discovered a heart that's beautiful, that speaks of eternal home,
And when I looked to the owner of this heart that I had found,
I saw a face as gorgeous as the heart she held proud

blablabla

It may be the middle of the night,

But if the sparrows wake up i'll answer their call,

I'll listen to what the say with intent ears,

Making notes in my head of everything they said,

I've learned the difference between the butterfly and caterpillar,

One only dreams, taking what's presented and easiest to attain,

While the other searches and finds what it's been looking for,

Settling for no less,

If I'm the flower then let your approving eyes see me as acceptable.

Empty promises have dug holes,

And left them empty filled with air,

But I'll replace the holes and built castles where they were,

This I will hold true.

success

If fan blades were ferris wheels,

And peddles were boats to travel the sea,

Then my imagination is content,

Because i've been inching my way closer to home,

Although my home hasn't been built.

Whoever thought progress would be made by sitting,

While others work for their reward,

I couldn't tell how far I've traveled,

Yet I could say it was worth the effort,

But when it's all said and done,

Once the fabric has returned to it's original place,

I'd repeated all the steps over again.

Yellow and white are guides,

No one said they were always meant to be followed,

lines and crosses are engraved in the grass,

Marking my now regular path,

Once seven have passed they're drawn again.

Two thirds never felt this way before,

Perfect in tension,

Something I can't say I had felt in the past,

But something I happily say I have

The Prospector

Colors have been changing,

From yellow to blue,

And everywhere in between,

Who knows what tomorrow holds,

Because I've been so bipolar,

I can't find my heart again,

But melodies are filling in the cracks,

Notes are like cannons bursting through the quiet,

I've been stuck questioning,

To be content or impatient.

Hearing whispers of the future,

Is a dream I've been pleasantly haunted by,

I may be ruining the surprise,

I just want to know if I'm chasing the wind,

I've been walking home to a ghost,

And then waking up to the sunrise,

Even though it's just a thought,

I have more incentive to hope than before,

Slowly transparent images will become concrete,

I'll try as hard as I can to make this dream reality

Well I guess my heart isn't my own again,

When it's gone melodies are like cannons,

Ripping through my walls,

Leaving me alone in the cold,

But I've grown to love the feeling,

Notes are gliding up and down,

Making me feel so empty,

I just want to know,

Am I chasing a lost cause.

I may be spoiling the surprise,

But it's worth waking up to you,

Please just give me a sign, 

I won't say a word,

But I'll make everything work in the end

duh it's easy!

I feel asleep with a page at my side,

Blank with thoughts that never escaped my mind,

When I awoke,

It was covered in shapes,

Browns and Blacks,

Circles and lines,

It was vaguely familiar,

Something I've seen before,

I hadn't taken the time to remember,

But something I knew I couldn't forget

When I put together the glass prism,

The puzzle became clear,

Down the wooden hallway,

I've been looking through windows,

Where you see yourself,

Standing like a reflection,

But the frame was more inviting,

When the night had approached,

The curtains came down,

Until the morning came,

The owner opened their eyes,

The curtains pulled back once again

While walking through town,

Everyone was carefree,

Everything was going according to plan,

They got their way and so did I,

But then I was left with nothing,

The ground began to shake beneath my feet,

All I could hear was the air,

Whispering in my ear,

Trying to persuade me,

Saying I was wrong,

Well the wind was right.

Everything I thought I knew,

Has been thrown out the window,

There's no more absolutes,

Only questions with open answers,

I'm trying to tell myself,

It will be different,

When the day comes to an end,

But I enjoyed the view of ratios,

Being close to one,

I'll settle for seven,

Instead of three and a half

Giving up on secrets

I've been sending letters,

Waiting for anyone to read,

To tell me what they think,

And speak of what they mean,

But none could give me an answer,

I felt so clever,

Not one of them could see,

What any of them implied,

All alluding to one thing,

If I'm in love,

Than nobody knows tonight.

In a field full of kites,

You'll find her,

Above the trees in a hot air balloon,

Staring at the stars,

Getting as close as she can,

She's in love and so am I,

Not with ourselves,

With the creator of the sky,

But as our heads went down,

We were looking at each other.

Night came and there she was again,

Not just a face,

Now more like a friend,

We talked for a time,

And I stood attentive,

Taking in every word,

Then she said farewell,

And I told her goodbye,

We'd joked of this moment,

But kept it in mind,

And then it happened,

I never thought of it like this,

But I was pleasantly surprised.

Down by the ocean,

You'll find her,

Sitting in the sand watching the waves,

Looking at the fish,

And all their flashing colors,

She's in love and so am I,

Not with each other,

With the maker of the sea,

And when you know this,

You don't walk alone,

You walk together.

Now we travel the world side by side,

Proclaiming God's glory,

Thanking Him for sight,

We once walked around in darkness,

But now cover our eyes,

Now years have past and our tattered shoes,

Can't hold themselves together,

We put them to good use,

And there's more than enough memories,

To keep dreaming of times we shared

pots and pans

She looked out the window,

Staring at the night sky,

A blue dress, 

To compliment dreams of freedom,

I had seen her times before,

Yet never used a word,

I've been walking in the dark,

When I turned on the light,

My shadow was gone,

Something you don't notice,

While your head's in the clouds,

Well it found it's way to you,

So I thought,

Let's run with the others,

Never thinking of home,

And thinking of our future,

Never changing the scenery,

Tree tops serve as our home,

Hearing cannons from the ships at sea,

Hiding anything special in the knotholes of trees,

Foxes and raccoons our friends,

I have everything I need,

As long as your by my side,

We'll be greeted by the waves of the ocean,

And the brightest sunrise you'll ever see,

If caught by hooks or hulls, 

I'll always come back for you,

Once free we'll watch time float away,

And drift to the bottom of the sea,

Carrying our worries away,

Referring to our future as the present,

We're free you and I,

The world can't hold us down,

I thought of all we could do,

I dreamt of sitting on clock towers,

Holding hands seeing the city far below,

And then it was time,

To take you home,

It was a night I won't soon forget

Rolling wheels and parking lots

I saw the birds fly overhead,

For what felt like hours,

Spring was closer to coming again,

But I heard of a garden...

Who's flowers were brilliant,

No weeds could be found,

The envy of others,

But the owner was proud,

The care was mundane,

And the reward so bright,

So I walked around,

And I sat through the night.

I can hear wings,

From the bees up above,

The sidewalk has faded but I'll find where it was,

My mind is tired from picturing again,

So I move even faster, to where I've been never been,

Rolling wheels and parking lots,

The city never sleeps, but the traffic stops,

Meeting places filled with empty faces,

I hope you've seen what I've been looking for.

I crept into my room,

As if I was a thief,

I never spoke of this venture,

My dreams were put to sleep,

I knew I'd have to wait for this chance again,

But that was ok,

I had pictures to keep me company,

I can hear wings,

From the bees up above,

The sidewalk has faded but I'll find where it was,

My mind is tired of imagining once again,

So I move even faster, to where I've been never been,

Rolling wheels and parking lots,

Every car looks the same,

But each person is not,

Seven minutes never passed,

Like they did that day,

But tomorrow was better,

I didn't leave empty,

After it was over,

I left with fear,

But I was filled with joy,

Although the night was approaching 

The sun was still shining on me,

I can hear wings,

From the bees up above,

The sidewalk has faded but I'll find where it was,

My mind is tired from imagining you,

So I move even faster, to where I've been never been,

Rolling wheels and parking lots,

I found you at last,

And it was more than enough,

Months will pass by,

I'll wait for you again,

But I'll be back,

You just have to say when

Concert

From outside you could tell,

No one was prepared,

Each musician talked of their great knowledge,

But all we could hear was their haste,

Every one looked at the parts no more than once,

They all said it was elementary,

But what the audience heard was childish.

When it was over the crowd withered fast,

And the orchestra stayed for hours,

Each one angered with how they played,

Although, not one claimed fault for themselves,

Accusations were louder than anyone's confidence.

Everyone knew they were to blame,

Yet, nobody showed guilt.

When all were home,

They had the same intensions,

Compensate for the amateur act,

But everyone knew it was too late.

This was the thorn that would stay buried,

But months later, you could never tell it was there

Forests

I was walking through the woods,

And I saw fields of trees, 

So many were withering,

but a few were living,

Then I stopped at one,

It was so full of life!

Set apart from the rest.

When the sun would shine,

It's leaves were such a radiant maroon,

And they looked so luminous waving in the sun,

These leaves were so full,

They provided more than shade,

They brought comfort and peace.

When i saw the wood of this tree

I noticed it was so small, 

It seemed it would snap in a storm,

but i was wrong,

It's wood was dense!

And it's roots were so far below!

This tree would stand tall against the rest,

even though it was so small,

When it's fruit ripened,

O if i could express my love of it's fruit!

It's taste was  sweet,

So filling and satisfying.

If only i could keep this tree,

Call it my own!

I would proudly display it,

For anyone passing by.

I thought,

Surely this tree has been in different sun,

It's soil must be rich,

And it's water so pure.

Then I observed it's base,

I know of no better foundation!

It was rooted within a rock, 

holding it tightly in place,

And when I had gone home,

When I came out of the forest,

I couldn't wait for the next day,

To revel again in God's creation 

seeds in the wind

I took a walk outside to see the sunlight,

everyone says the sun exists only in the day

but what's reflecting from the moon?

when living in a world of appearance

they miss the answers hidden from sight

and while piecing together the mysteries

I only ask more questions

now I'm an optimist but I need a relief

how much knowledge does anyone need to know?

we know enough to have a future at the end.

as I read deeper into this portrait

man and woman with love in each others eyes

I feel sorrow for the other man hidden in the crowd

who looks at her with the same love 

the one who she swore she loved, attracting the other

she always has a plan and she always gets her way

so I ask what defines a flower from a weed?

everyone has the same dream

some just have more power 

eh

dreams, memories,

they're all the same,

i wish i could detach the bond,

but with you nothing is easy,

i'd rather be the one left to the streets,

at least i'd get back on my feet,

the constant knocking on my front door is falls on my ears with contempt,

if only there was a back door run out of,

i need a break from your constant pounding on my walls

in perfect rhythm with the throbbing inside my head,

but i'm trapped and the walls wearing thin,

even when it's over it's never truly over,

tomorrow's a new day but it feels the same,

it's still filled with the droning tones of everything associated with you,

full of the constant longing to go back to the past,

you dream of the days past,

and i dread them all the same,

but i can't convey these thoughts, 

you're  a fragile egg,  just waiting to crack, 

and i won't be the one who does,

please be merciful, i'm not a begging person,

but give me this time to myself,

leave me to regret in peace

throwing stones

like a tornado i hear the sound,

sounds of chaos and the tearing of foundations,

such power that overlooks the subjects underneath,

but in the same breath there's joy,

the same winds tow me to fields of peace,

have i been the only one?

you speak with disregard,

and i listen with hope of truth,

i create my own circumstances,

when we talk i lose track of reality and fantasy,

when you speak you pretend,

but i speak with sincerity,

though we each play along,

i hope you feel something more as i do

lets begin again!

how can we compare?

how do we begin to become?

for the years we've been observers,

only listeners, and crutches to the weak,

I've gladly cooperated for the years,

and i gladly will,

but who listens to the listener?

with hands over our mouths no one hears our cries,

our longing to be heard,

when our hearts break,

who holds the pieces until we find peace?

i'll gladly listen to your needs, 

i'll help in whatever way i can, 

but with each word that passes i grow weak with discomfort,

i only wish my half of the story could be heard,

my story that proclaims my need for your voice,

and your heart,

such calm, and subtle words that flow into my ear,

they drift through my head for days,

we want to be heard, 

we want to be held,

we want to be loved

Song #32

Holding your hands out again?

There's nothing but air

No, I promise,

I see a way out,

There is a way out

Where is it?

Where do you draw the line?

There's nothing

This is only your dream

Wake up,

And walk away

It's my only escape,

Why walk away

From what I've chased

This was my right,

This was my shelter,

Don't tell me,

This is a false sense of security

She was never there,

This was your aspiration,

The only thing you had left,

You made you own story,

Just to ignore the truth,

Justifying yourself does no good,

She exists only for you,

She is just a hope, nothing more,

Let her go

Song #31 Gold and Silver

"I swear!

Everything is just ahead!

The diamonds, the riches!

It's all so close!"

 

Everyone left,

Unsatisfied with what they saw,

But I can see the truth,

There's treasure hidden beneath me,

I've been digging and crawling,

"There must be a reward"

 

It's now in front of me,

But I can't lift it myself,

I'm left gazing,

At what I've struggled to claim as my own,

 

Everyone walked away,

And now I have no choice,

I'll have to walk away too,

 

"Everyone!

We had the answer to our problems!

We were so close!

This was your decision,

Alone,

Is this the fate you chose for me?"

 

All I wanted was a chance to prove myself,

I did,

Nobody was there to see,

Nobody.

 

The jewels are at my side,

Untouched,

Where I'll make my grave,

I was right all along,

It was in our grasp,

Then you walked away,

Your devotion was all I asked.

 

"When you promised,

Were you just here for the gold?

This takes sacrifice!

I devoted my life!

What did you come here for?
To make me a fool?

You have your wish!"

 

The ground shifted over time,

And the fortune was overturned,

Buried under again,

And the hands came back,

They escaped with all the gems,

Leaving the master below,

 

"This was to be my honor,

My only compromise for the years I suffered"

Song #30 Shameful

I would give you the world,

And we could move the highest mountains,

But only in make believe,

Where the truth lies,

We can never be,

This is the closest I've come,

And we're still too far from where I want to be,

You're a light in a tower,

Shining for the city below,

And the city chases you with me,

I know I'm far from acceptable,

So I turn away,

Before you're trapped in my mind,

You cast my shadow in front of me,

Reminding me of who I really am,

And showing me you aren't interested,

With grief on my shoulders,

I head home with arms holding myself together,

Because all who's left is the cold

Song #29 Embers

Everything has reduced to rubble,

Every ship has sank,

Beyond the harbor,

There's nothing but oceans,

That I've created,

I'm signing out of this deal,

This wasn't part of the bargain,

I'll erase my signature with my tears,

I don't care if I fold under the pressure,

I don't care what you think of me,

Mark me a coward,

I'll mark you an enemy,

Frame me the culprit,

And I'll put you in the chains,

I know you want to throw me to the sea,

But I'll throw you to the fire,

Choose your words carefully,

And so will I,

I'm giving up on morals,

It's an eye for an eye,

Song #28 Endeavor

This is it,

Wave goodbye,

And blow a kiss,

There's no sand in sight,

Who came on this venture?

Except the ones who forced me on,

Is there an answer?

Quiet fills the empty spaces,

Loading and filling,

I'm running out of space,

Throw the rest overboard,

Do I have a voice?

Your agenda is your vision,

Just try to see past it,

I will haunt this as a grave,

The mark of a life,

Let's see you make it out alive,

Does anyone else feel the heat?

Does ash fill your lungs?

Make this your punishment,

I'll watch you struggle,

Survive this endeavor,

Pull yourself up,

I want to be pushing you back down,

Stand in your window,

Scared to see past your shelter,

I will haunt this as a grave,

My loves and grievances,

Buried below,

The black on my hands,

Will wash off,

But you won't clean this as easy,

My word stands,

And I'll watch you crumble under the pressure,

I'll haunt this as a grave

Song #27 Words

Words,

Are the medium by which we create,

There's a tapestry we are weaving,

Finishing what the other starts,

Each holding the needles and threads,

We seam ourselves together,

These words will never grow old,

This pattern quickly evolves,

With each passing day,

But I need to see what is completing my works,

Hours are beginning to feel as days,

And we continue to unravel all our efforts,

I'm forgetting your face,

And I'm heartbroken.

With each step I take,

I know I'm nearing you,

And you feel the same,

We walk in sync,

Following the others heart,

The closer we are the faster we move,

Chase to find you,

I'm approaching the doors,

And I can't hear your voice,

I'm running in circles on this vessel,

The faces are blending over and over,

There is finally my reward,

I find you sitting,

Staring back at me,

These glances are shooting like fireworks,

And it creates a beautiful display,

My feet refrain to move,

I'm stuck staring at the one who stares at me,

Yet I'm satisfied,

When I return to the harbor,

I know time is short,

I lie in bed,

Recollecting all that you are,

Each time I remember you,

The memory fades more and more,

Now again I'm staring at the screen,

Waiting and waiting for your words,

They spin a web,

Connecting me to you,

Yet now all I ever get is your words,

Your presence no more,

Our stitching is slowing to a halt,

Soon there will be an unfinished sewing,

Hanging in our hearts

Song #26 The Waters Edge

Sit in the dark,

And take the medicine,

Take whatever makes me feel better,

It's a false sense of security,

I know I won't be back,

I know this will come crashing down,

I'm stalling for the bottom,

And I'm afraid of when it happens,

I've had my share of dreams,

Who can say they haven't,

But all of mine never come to be true,

All these faces,

I shutter to look at,

I just want this to stop,

If this is the end,

Make it come faster than it is,

My heart still lies with you,

I still look at you with thoughts of love,

But this has to come to pass,

If so don't wait to say,

I'm aching to see the darkest of days,

I want the waves to break over me,

I'm ready to be stripped from the land,

Pull me to the depths,

I want to feel the cool of the ocean all over,

I want to see the seas calm,

Song #25 Night As Cold As Ice

Stop yourself,

We're about to explode,

I can feel this in waves,

Each getting harder to pass,

Just keep on walking,

This is something,

Even I don't want to see,

This will be a sight inevitable,

Choose carefully and plan each step,

Hold on to sanity,

Before long I'll fall to the floor,

There's going to be no safety,

And nothing close to grab,

Pain turns to despair,

Turns to hate,

And the cycle continues,

Something will pull me out,

Till then I'm not sure what,

This is a cold winters night,

And daylight seems too far away,

Who wants to hold up my weak self?

It's going to be me, myself, and I,

Anyone else care to join?

I've got a long night ahead of me,

Lets get the worst over now.

Song #24 A Mockery

Speak to me,

I just want to hear you,

I'm a sorry excuse for a life,

I'll chase the wild dreams,

Maybe we'll work,

But even I doubt anything flourishing,

There's a divide between close and achievement,

I'm refusing to believe,

I'm setting up the days to be filled with mourning,

Don't blame yourself,

Intentions are digging my grave,

Song #23 Contempt

So this was your plan?

You can call it what you want,

I call it a disaster,

You truly don't see behind you,

Disdain always was your best quality,

I hope you're happy staring in the mirror,

I know what you've done,

And I don't want anything to do with your future,

When even I can see tears down the road,

You have a major flaw,

Sign up now,

There won't be regrets,

That's what you said,

But that's not what I know,

I'll turn on the burners,

Until you can feel something,

Something other than rash emotions,

Take this turn faster than ever attempted,

The wreckage can be seen a mile away.

Song #22 Slaves

Pursue everything possible,

Dig your hands into the ground,

We're not letting go,

Not without a fight,

You can pull as hard as you want,

I'll just hold even harder,

Sorrow,

I've become its slave,

Throw your past in the furnace,

Everything burns slowly,

Eventually it is reduced to ash,

Eventually no one will have known,

Here comes the end,

The smoke rises,

Concluding the story's first chapter,

And a melancholy beginning,

Everyone has a title to hide behind,

And they throw it over a shoulder,

I have eyes,

I can see your true thoughts,

This holds no future for me,

I'll clinch what belongs to me,

You can't persuade,

I've made my decision. 

Song #21 Cornered

As fear slips into this dimly lit room,

I feel I've felt this too many times before,

God, I'm afraid to see the morning,

The walls show me I am trapped,

The pressure is building,

But I can't tell when it's too late,

Tension,

What is simple,

Made complex,

This is a struggle,

And I'm slipping,

Beneath this unstable ground,

Hold yourself together till day,

And awake to your results,

Weeks and weeks of expecting,

Everything seems to fall at the wrong time,

Become a slave to yourself,

Working to your own demise,

You don't have a choice

Song #20 Constrictor

Tormented by ourselves,

We're trapped in our complacency,

Just when we're through,

It's not even close to over,

Pull you excuses along with you,

They're heavier than you know,

Crying on the floor,

Cause it's the only one who’s heard your story,

Fall to your bed side,

Cause it's the only one who has comforted you

Nothing can help if you're not willing,

You've fantasized your self free,

And fallen when the truth comes crashing down,

How good it felt to be free,

All the world could be yours,

But you're stuck,

Your hand gripping what it thinks it needs,

Drive as far as you can from home,

Yet the story you've written will stay,

You can find guilt anywhere,

But finding yourself will lift the burdens,

There's a light,

But you put a sheet over it and walked away,

Trace your steps back,

Uncover the treasure,

That pays for the condemnation

Song #19 MIstakes

There's a fine line,

And you've crossed it,

Spiraling endlessly,

Head over heals,

I can see it from here,

The walls are just ahead,

And you don't seem to care,

 

(Chorus)

Our past,

We can take it back,

We can do this over,

This is our life,

And I can't stand this battling,

We are not perfect,

So lets not expect each other to be,

 

Take time to look at the scene unfolding,

And see the end of this tragedy,

Throw everything away,

Swear you'll start again,

But where,

That's my one question,

It will take time to pick up the pieces,

You can't do this alone,

And I'm right here

 

Chorus

 

There's not much time,

The floor is shaking,

I can see the cracks,

This plan has a major flaw,

But you don't want to hear it,

Convince yourself,

You have it all figured out,

I can see the fear in your eyes,

Don't let go of all you have,

I'm not saying I've been right,

But neither were you,

 

Chorus

 

That's the past,

And it's time to forget all mistakes

Song #18 Skeleton in the Closet

Take a hard look,

It isn't difficult to see,

The blood is covering the floor,

Anyone can see the scars,

And make their own diagnosis,

Labels and labels,

Frame everything you can,

But I can't find anyone to blame but myself,

These wounds,

They're still hurting,

And I'm growing weak,

Giving in again,

I can't break this cycle,

Quit and the evidence is there for all to see,

Keep going and feel the convictions,

Choose,

Either way we'll suffer on and on,

Shed light in this dark room,

See what we've become,

Choices and choices endlessly made,

But none seem to be right,

Abstinence leaves your life a wreck,

And your left covering up the trail,

Try to do what's right,

Though it will end,

A tragedy like before,

Starting and stopping again and again,

Just give it up,

There's just one body to bury,

But we've gambled way too deep,

Everything will lead to the start,

No one will think of us the same.

Red and Blue

Mistake after mistake only adds to the tension,

We're just trying to make it out alive,

But we were all too late,

Trying to defend themselves and the ones they love,

They run away,

Give mercy,

Stop chasing for your revenge,

In time we will cope,

You ask for everything at the wrong hour,

Give us a fighting chance,

What is sincere is marked as betrayal,

And we are all guilty of crimes,

In trying to show compassion,

We are falsely accused,

Wait for dawn to gather your thoughts.

So I'll head home down the narrow roads,

Travel these paths alone,

Escape while I can,

No one believes innocence,

And my voice is left unheard

Song #17 Stuck

What peace I have,

To see sun through the clouds,

I am free,

Let go of reality,

And let your aspirations fall down,

Like drops of rain,

so cool to the touch,

This is what I've been waiting for,

A chance to never look to the past,

Yet it's all we can see,

I dream of fields,

And the breeze blowing me away,

I'm taken to your window,

And I'll take one last look,

We turn and walk,

But I am still tied to your tree,

The view is so nice from here,

Yet I'm tortured by you,

So turn out the lights,

Leave me in the dark,

I'll wait till morning,

Once last glimpse is all I ask.

Song #16 A Family Divided

Another bitter end,

A circle split by itself,

Is this what we intended?

Tearing and tearing again,

Is there a reason?

When can we stop the pulling and prodding?

I'm waiting for a days end,

When chaos isn't the goal,

We have destroyed ourselves,

Trying to unite,

The constant betrayal is taking its toll,

And I'm done taking the time,

The walls come falling to the floor,

And the roof is nowhere to be found,

This is what you call a home?

Where is your family?

Consistently lurking in the shadows,

They talk and spread,

Telling what they can,

To keep themselves away from the light,

Soon enough the secrets can't hide,

And this town will fall in regret.

Song #15 Savior

Such a path we fall for,

Another step without taking caution,

And I've been sitting,

Waiting to see someone make a choice.

Can this be over now?

Will you take my hand?

Lets clean you up,

Lets pull you together,

Take what you've done,

Throw it away,

I see redemption,

On the horizon line,

So don't hold back,

Release this from your grip,

It doesn't control you,

Not anymore,

Don't let me be the one,

Who has to see you suffer,

We can change this,

This spiral downward,

I will pull you up from the depths,

Have faith and trust in me.

Song #14 Flightless

Have I really become this ignorant?

Falling for this trap again,

I'm becoming too accustomed to this,

Something I never wanted to happen,

But it has anyway,

There's no turning back,

You've pushed me too close,

And you pushed me in,

You can kill one bird with two stones,

But it takes a tangled web of branches,

And someone willing to try again,

When will honesty become the standard?

Can hiding till the end really be best?

I choose to believe otherwise.

Will anyone join me?

This winding road,

I don't know where it leads,

But I need a change in scenery,

This was my one hope,

And now it's tossed to the winds,

No matter what you say,

I think it's best if I leave

Song #13 Perfect

This would be about God. Just an FYI

Beauty I've found at last,

I've beat around the bush too long,

This is what I've been yearning for

A perfect being,

Someone unseen, unheard,

Yet so profound they can't be ignored,

Come blow me away with the wind,

Guide me to your heart,

Show me something new, 

Change my eyes,

I want to see what you see,

Take me somewhere for us,

A place where I can dance in your love,

I want to be swept off my feet again,

So bring me to your presence,

What I would give to see this world feel the same,

I will tell of you,

And say I have found true love,

A love perfect and everlasting,

Let my words be a sweet sound to your ears.

Song #12 The Sun

This is the one that will never be seen... ugh. unless she changes her mind

What a gift I've received,

Joy I profess to the skies,

I no longer think in time,

I count the hours from when I see you,

You’re my sunrise and sunset,

You shine till you're gone,

And I am left imagining,

How marvelous you'll be the next day,

I wait to hear from you,

So during the night,

I know you're still shining somewhere,

Life away from this,

What I thought was normal,

Has become cold,

As lonely as the midnight hour,

But I know you'll come again,

And I can rest easy,

When storms come,

I know you will follow,

You ease the floods,

You calm the seas,

So I will wait to see you,

I look to the east,

And know you'll come again

Song #11 Can it be

As you know this isn't a song this was the first and only poem so far.... i've given her.

Can this even be true,

All this waiting,

This wasn't what I expected,

But it's much better,

I look to the left and know you'll be there,

And I'm content.

 

This is truly a sight to see,

The way the sun reflects,

It shines for your eyes,

We laugh at everything we say,

And don't care about anything else,

I can't dream it any better.

 

Every touch,

An embrace to remember,

It's something extraordinary.

The only regret,

Is waiting till now,

Stay longer,

Life's brighter with you here.

Song #10 A Spot in the Desert

You just keep on going,

I can see you from here,

Truly I've wished I did before,

Because it's so clear now,

With daylight, comes sight to see,

And what a scene unfolds,

Crawl,

Searching for something to give you meaning,

You thrive on your own commendations,

What a deadly game to play,

You've stuck yourself in this hole,

Can you even get out?

What a deadly game to play,

Taking whatever you can get,

Without even a second glance,

I swear I have new eyes,

Everything is unveiled,

What a painful sight to see,

Still sifting through the sand,

Grab onto anything willing,

I've seen you do this before,

Grab on to anything willing,

You seem to more and more,

Get your head on straight,

Get out before it's too late,

See how you put your neck on the line?

There's no options left,

Back out now with hands raised high,

Surrender yourself,

Before it's too late.

Song #9 Speaking in Tongues

You've changed things,

Closed yourself off,

I can't seem to make this like before,

Everything I try,

You dismiss it,

I get the feeling that you're resenting me.

What have I done?

I don't even know,

 

You weren't this way,

Stop pushing and pulling,

I'm about sick of giving and taking,

I never know what to say,

We might as well say nothing,

Because I can't,

Find something to spark your interest,

If you're done with me, just say it,

It's better than believing everything is fine,

 

What happened to life before?

This isn't living,

I'm just a hollow shell,

Somewhere you divide,

I can't tell what you want me to say,

I'm becoming weary,

These one sided conversations,

They're making me question,

Question if this is worth the time,

 

Chorus

 

You don't sound interested in me anymore,

What's it going to take?

Frankly I'm about done,

But I'll give you a chance once more,

If there's reason to this madness,

Please, tell me,

I can't find a cause,

Give me motivation to try this again,

 

Chorus

 

I can't win your game,

If you keep changing the rules,

If you're not willing,

Neither am I

Song #8 Withdrawals

I've lost my sense of direction

It's been too long,

I'm suffocating,

You were my oxygen,

If I could just take back time

Perhaps this would be better if I never knew you,

 

I know your not coming back

It seems I can't keep you close,

I can't hold your attention,

This is tearing me apart,

Limb by limb,

I no longer think rationally,

I have to let go,

But I can't, something compels me to hold on,

There won't be anything left to hold soon,

 

I miss the simple embrace,

The touch of your lips,

I can't say it was a smart idea,

I caused this pain,

But I loved it for the time,

Now though, I can't take this,

These withdrawals will kill me,

I can't live without you,

 

Chorus

 

I'll try to hold on,

But I can't forever,

Will you be there to catch me before I fall?

I hope so,

But hope seems unreal now,

I haven't felt this way in a long time,

I pray I won't feel it anytime soon,

Will someone help me,

I'm scared I won' see the light of day

 

Chorus

Song #7 Seeing

Breaking through,

Finally I can see

I guess it's been too long,

Being left in the dark,

I seem to regard things differently,

Unlike I did before,

This all seems too good,

I can't seem to grasp the concepts,

But you've captured my attention,

 

(Chorus)

This was your plan?

You couldn't just let go,

This grudge is futile,

Just take what's yours leave

You've made your point,

I have nothing left to say to you,

 

It's starting to make sense,

I feel betrayed,

This is going to take some time,

I've fallen to the floor,

Give me a chance to clear my head,

I'm so lost,

This isn't what you promised

Your lying has become conventional

It's mystifying,

Just trying to gleam the truth from your lies

 

Chorus

 

You seem to be content,

You've already moved on,

But I won't forget,

This is too hard to forget,

Is it really that difficult?

Just to give up your ways,

Why do you enjoy my foolishness?

I'm suffering from this,

You don't even care for a soul,

I'm done,

You can't control me anymore,

Don't push your luck again,

 

Chorus

Song #6 Paintings

Standing back, I'll see this from here,

A full picture that I have painted with my actions,

If seeing is believing,

I believe I've made a terrible mistake,

Knowing this, at least, is a step towards a change,

But right now I'm too sick to move,

I think I'll stare at this portrayal,

What I thought would be a masterpiece,

It's instead a terrible shame,

A waste of my work,

I'm giving up on this depiction now,

You took it and thrust yourself all over,

A beautiful addition,

But one that I can't stand to see anymore,

I've become selfish

I've trapped myself here,

Once again I'll feel the pain of this,

Trying to make you

What you don't want to be

I've let you engulf me,

And now I can't let you go

 

 Now I'll watch as your colors slip down the canvas,

Covering all that I've done,

Letting go will hard, I know this at least,

But I'll have to let go eventually,

I'm throwing away this painting now,

Never trying this medium again. 

Song #5 Calling

this is more of a poem but whatevs

It all starts with a sound

As peaceful as a breeze

But now I'm lost chasing

To find where it leads

I've walked so far I'm broken and tired

But this voice is leading

To where I want to be

So vulnerable

I've put myself here

But I have nowhere better to be

With a peace this inviting

I can breathe with lungs refilled

And my heart is full of love 

Song #1 Hearts Content

This is actually the first... and it's quite terrible hahaha

Everything says no

But  my heart says yes

this plan will never work

but how I'd love to give it a try

this question needs an answer

and there's so many to choose from

this was never the plan I had

to be in love with what I cannot have

 

If you could just take my hand

If I could snap out of this fabrication

maybe I'll get the chance

but for the moment I am lost

and I just have to break the locks

this will never be set in motion

yet I have these false perceptions

 

How can I think that

any of this could work

(What have I done to myself

I've started to dig my own hole

where have I gone wrong

I just wish we could be friends

But my heart cannot be satisfied

I swear tried, I swear I've tried

 

(chorus)

 

What have I done

where did I go wrong

where did I get these thoughts

how can stop this curse

I'm tired of reaching out my hand

And not getting anything back

 

(chorus)

Song #4 An Endless Struggle

How long

Will you stand there?

Get up and walk

Stop collecting dust

This nation

Has stood still for to long

When will you break free?

I am yelling the truth

Yet everyone walks right by

This was once a sacred nation

Lead free by the One who saves

Now you sin to His face

Do you feel no remorse?

I know

What they will face

I've seen their acts myself

My heart is breaking

My bones are aching

Your land will be undone

When will you burn your statues?

How long can you live in denial?

I've seen this city corrupt over time

It blackens everyday

Can you not hear the sounds of the army?

They've come to take what's yours away

Even as you repent

You do what you've done before

Time and time again

You're not fighting it off

You welcome your own demise

You've kept in your homes

I've warned and my voice has grown hoarse

How can I mourn for you?

When you never even cared

I cannot find one honest person

Nobody lives by the Word

And you given up your God

Traded life for death

Why can't you see through the lies?

You can't turn back you've had your chance

Your defeat will be short

The graves won't

Have the time to be filled

Song #3 Disaster

Laying in this room

I wake to the realization

That I am no longer safe

The walls are closing in

My mind is racing for a cure

The air is getting thin

My mind is racing for a cure

What have I done?

I've sold myself away

There is no outcome

That will leave me the same as yesterday

Falling on my face in prayer

I long for redemption

Set me free from these chains

Lift the burden off my soul

Beauty: no more than a disguise,

It covers their secrets

It's nothing more than my enemy

I have been deceived

Give me a second chance

O Lord, take control!

I can't stand to look at what I've caused

My future holds nothing but pain

My past will become my hope

The only thing I'll have left to hold

For now I'll lay here dreaming

There must be a solution

Please let me find the cure

Grace is now what I long to have

Don’t let me go

I promise

From this day forward

I will seek You before I take action

song #2 Assurance

I’ve seen you walk the line

Waver on the edge on the edge of  the cliff

I’ve seen the mistakes you’ve made

And how you had to pick up your pieces

I've tried to save you so many times

But I can’t try anymore

You'd rather leave your comfort

And step right out the door

 

 

How can you jump on to a ship

when you can see it will fall apart

how can you walk on the ground you do

when you can tell it’s sinking will soon start

I’ve tried to stop you so many times

And all you do is ignore

I have grown weak and tired

And I can’t stop you any more

 

You have the opportunity To save yourself

You’d rather dive in head-first

you've grown so arrogant

you think you have everything in control

But when water clears

And you see all the pain that's in store

Can you finally decide for yourself

To never head that way again

 

Chorus

 

Everytime you fall

Do you notice it’s harder to get back up

Everytime you face the fact

Do you ever wish you could take it back

You have to decide for yourself

Can you please make the right choice

In your head you’ve blocked me out

If only you cold hear my voice

If I can only change your mind

And you get past your self-deception

Then we could stop all the heart-ache and depression

 

Chorus

So it begins

Hello! so chelsea you request and i grant. here's the blog on which everysong ever shall go! eventually. LETS GET STARTED!!!! there will be a slow release to one a day.. starting from the first to most recent. so you will probably get bored once there are songs you've already seen but o well